Well I got a t-mobile sidekick. Its sweet. I don't know what im thinking or doing these days. But for some reason I want to stay at my crap as slave job : /

Oh and my fooking wisdom teeth hurt : <

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hey, hows it going?

things are good with me for the most part. I don't think anyone is still using or caring about what i post.. sorry if anyone still is and I am also sorry i haven't been reading yours. But i have been busy I live in Albany now with my girlfriend Alison. Things are great between us save for some new drama which is not all bad but its also kinda new and scary. I'm doing my best to cope with it because i know her new online friend makes her vary happy. All I want is for her to be happy and lately it seems like nothing i do is good enough.. i could just feel that way cus i want to be complemented.. but i don't think thats it.  It might be because she been really cranky as of late, because of some stuff and i try to help her but it makes her more cranky.. and when i try to give her space she worries and then i try to help and the cycle starts again..
Cool dreams thanks to vitamin B12 but it made me bring up some old feelings again but hopefully all that will be resolved because i finally am over what happened and am able to talk to her and get some closer. Quiting smoking is hard as hell >.< its one of my only vents. When i get pissed off sad or anything a cigarettes calms me down and i don't yell and fight with ppl I am afraid to see what will happen if i don't have that vent. But i need to stop because Alison thinks that is what is bugging her. maybe if i stop it will go away even if thats not what caused it. So I'll try try again. Her friend sent her some nice bath goodies I think ill break the rest of my smokes in front of her while shes all relaxed in the tub :D
she will either yell at me cus I'm in the bathroom when she is or she will yell at me cus I brought cigarettes near her. Or i might just get yelled at.. Or maybe she will think its sweet. I'm hoping for the last one.

Alright well I have to go clean the mess i made in the living room. Theres a mess of torn apart computers that i found on the street that im salvaging :P

My Personal Dna Report

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1. Ever been given a ring?
Yes

2. My Longest Relationship....?
Almost a year

3. Last gift you received:
pack of smokes

4. How many times have you dropped your cell?
only dropped my new one a few times

5. Last time you worked out?
last night

6. Thing(s) you spend a lot of money on?
video games, electronics, smokes, and other ppl

7. Last food you ate?
toast

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes

9. ONE favorite song:
blister in the sun

10.Where do you live?
hoover AL

11. High school you attend(ed):
waterloo hs/homeschool

12. Cell Phone Provider?
Cingular.

13. Favorite mall store(s):
coci bubble tea :P

14. Longest Job held:
1 year at cicinos

15. Do you own a pair of dice?
left em in ny

16. Do you prank call people?
nope

17. Last wedding attended?
my aunt n unckls

18. First friend you'd call if you won the lottery?
josh/amanda

19. Last time you attended church:
a few weeks ago

20. Favorite fast food restaurant:
idk

21. Biggest lie you have heard?
no clue

23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends?
waffle house/ihop

24. Can you cook?
yes

25. What kind of car do you drive?
none

26. Best kisser?
Amanda S.

27. Last time you cried?
i was in ny

28. Most disliked food:
sea food

29. Thing you like most about yourself:
i can analize shit. but it has a down side. idk i dont realy like myself

30. Thing you dislike most about yourself?
I am indesisev

31. Longest shift you have worked at a job?
idk prolly open to close dun know how long it was

33. Favorite Movie?
idk i like alot of movies.

34. Can you sing?
yes

35. Last concert attended?
cave 9

36. Last kiss?
a week or so ago

37. Last movie rented:
oh man i dont know, i went to go see a play last night tho

38. Thing you never leave home without?
Cell Phone

39. Favorite vacation spot?
florda, or just with friends

40. Do you like chinese food?
yes

41. What size is your bed?
small

42. Is your room clean?
heh not realy

43. Laptop or Desktop:
laptop

45. Do you smoke?
yea

46. Sleep with or without clothes on?
i sleep im my roxors

47. Who sleeps with you every night?
no one ; ;

48. Do long distance relationships work?
trust me when i say this.. no ; ;

49. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
4

50. Pancakes or French Toast?
ft

51. How do you like your coffee?
just creamer n teh coffie

52. How do you like your eggs?
I don't like eggs, i had to wash pans with eggs in them at cicinos and it smelled so bad it turnd me off from eggs for ever ><

53. Do you believe in astrology?
a lil bit

54. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My grandmother

55. Last person on your missed call list?
Mavrick

56. What was the last text message you recieved?
dun know

57. Mcdonalds or Burger King?
macdonalds

58. Number of pillows?
1

59. What are you hearing right now?
msi

60. Pick a lyric, any lyric or song?
"'m never noticed No, never noticed You're so amazing So amazing

61. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
grape, but as long as it tastes good its all good

62. Can you play pool?
yes

64. Favorite ice cream?
half backed- ben n jerrys

65. Do you like maps?
only if i need them

67. Ever play spin the bottle?
yes

68. Ever attend a theme party?
no

69. What is your favorite season?
fall

70. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
last night

71. What time did you wake up this morning?
10:00

72. Best thing about winter?
snow in ny

73. Last time a cop gave you a ticket?
never

75. Name of your first pet?
salem

76. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
cooo

77. What are you doing this weekend?
work

79. What is the third letter of your name?
n

80. How old are your pets?
dun know

81. What color is your backpack?
black

82. Are you sick?
dont think so

83. Do you go to school?
no

84. Is the bathroom open?
yes...?

85. Are you on a laptop?
yes...?

86. Are you watching MTV?
no

87. Are you smiling?
no

88. Do you have on eyeliner?
no

90. Are you blonde?
heh

91. Do you have a myspace?
yes

92. Are you in high school?
no

93. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
no

94. What is your favorite name?
i dun know

95. What color is your bathing suit?
black

96. Does your school start in August?
graduated

97. Did you go on vacation last month?
no

98. Have you ever been on a cruise?
no

99. Do you have a sister?
yes

100. Are you upstairs?
no.

im in a sricky situation right now lol

i want to go out with this girl Clair down hear in bama, but i still love Sarah... i just want to be with someone realy

and this might give Sarah a reality check to, but then i would want to brake up with Clair... (if we evan go out) and i hate hurting people.

but i have no idea.. lots of pros and cons....


anyone who can give me some advice i would like it sooo

and i hope Amanda reads this i honor her advice in the highst light.



but on the brighter side of things i saw the doom movie and courps bride today, doom was so bad ass ><

ans i start work at jhony rockets monday


and in the mean time ill jusst try to stay happey and nor let things get to me ^_^

hi, havent updated in a while so i thought id fill yea in.
Im going to be moveing down to sarahs house to live with em get a job and go to college (not realy sure about colleges yet but thats proly going to happen)


iv also thought about becomeing a comercial airlines piolt, they get payed the mad duckets YO


and manda is getin married ^_^

cant wait for wedding :D


out side of that im just waiting to have enuf money to fly down to alabama lol

got back in NY around 1am-ish tuesday night... wensday morning


but hears the story, ill start it when me n chris went to the laundry room to do what you do in the laundry room, and that to wash clothing you putz. after we were done we went back and manda was the only one up so me and chris and kinda amanda watched ace ventura and i was like im going to stay up all night and chris was like cool i will to... and went to sleep like an hour later


so me and manda were chillin till about 7ish i cant member but then she went to sleep.
i stayed up and played some flash games on newgrounds till frosty woke up for work and we had a cup of coffie and talked for a bit then she took off. then i watched the news and talked to josh for a while till about 11 and woke jerry up and told him he should get ready some time soon. then tossed a green ball at a sleeping sarah, got stuff together and left. no one evan got up to be like see yea or anything sept amy, and i got a sleepy high five from chris when i went to get my stuff. but anyways got to alabama airport sat down had a cup of coffie and boarded my plain it was such a quick boarding it was so good no waiting at all. then in detroit i go to a gate desk and i asked which gate my plain would be boarding and the ladys like nope your plains been cancelled hears a new ticket for tommarah at 7 30 go to C1 and they will tell you what to do. i go to c1 and tha ladys all frustrated cus ppl have been sent to her for no reason and there not suposed to do that. and then she called this gate manager dude and he set me up with a hotel room and food money n stuff because i had 3 dollers and 1.77 in the bank (i blaim sarah cus i got charged 2 times for her zelda cuf things cus when she paid for it she was only buying 1 cuff not a pair so i got her 2.)

aaand lets see then the manajor dude was like oh yea how old are you and i said 17 and he was like... uhhh ooh... and sent me to were a rochester plain would be boardingand told me to see if i can get on that one, i went there and there was a huge line of ppl and i asked em once and there like wait in line. i ask em again and there like... fine come with me and they take me to a daycare were they send kids that fly alone and have had plain mishaps n stuff. and i had to wait in that damn room that smelled of warm piss and i couldent leave or els i might get lost or something)untill 10:00 when i could get on a plain to ROC.
and i got to ROC around midnight, got home around 1am


and i blaim sarah for aaaalll of this

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i havent evan looked at lj in a long time i know you must all miss me :P

jokeing lol

but yea update! see yea again in a month lol

now i just need to update deviantart...

my birthday is monday :wiggel:

Current mood :: bored
Current music :: DDR ultramix 2 songs
Current taste :: maruchan rammen ^_^
Current hair :: dark brown... starting to look red? and its finaly starting to get longer ^_^
Current clothes :: work cloths
Current annoyance :: boredom
Current thing I ought to be doing :: home school test
Current windows open :: LJ. buddy list, and talking to grant
Current desktop picture:: kakashi
Current favorite band :: i dun knowww, listining to NIN
Current book :: heh me read lol, i just got done with flcl if that counts lol
Current cd in stereo :: 40+ish.. not nameing the all
Current crush :: :D
Current favorite celeb :: johnny depp
Current hate :: ppl who dont wana work and i have to work for them
Smoke? :: i like incense
Do drugs? :: not anymore
Have a dream that keeps coming back? :: not resently
Read the newspaper? :: some times at work if its super slow
Have any gay or lesbian friends? :: yea i have i think 2 lesbian friends and a gay dude, hes cool
Believe in miracles? :: id like to think happy thoughts ^_^
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? :: yea!
Consider yourself tolerant of others? :: id like to, i try to at least :P
Consider love a mistake? :: nope ^^
Like the taste of alcohol? :: yes yes...you know, it'd be great to go out and celebrate cinco de mayo with some margaritas and shit (stole answer from amanda)
Have a favorite candy? :: im a man who loves his taffy.... mmmhhhhhh
Believe in astrology? :: nah but i read mine proly every day cus im bored and sometimes its funny stuff
Believe in magic? :: kinda im agnostic about it lol
Believe in God? :: agnostic again
Have any pets? :: kinda at my house theres 4 sats and 1 dog :P
Go to or plan to go to college? :: id like to
Have any piercing's? :: i have one zero gauge... thats sounds so stupid lol
Hate yourself :: only when i get all down in teh dumps
Have an obsession? :: otaku ^^
Have a secret crush? :: not realy a secret lol
Do they know yet? :: yea lol
Care about looks? :: i try not to but yea i do
=LOVE LIFE=

Ever been in love? :: indeed
Do you believe in love at first sight? :: no, i believe that it's infatuation at first sight (stole again from amanda)
Do you believe in "the one?" :: yeah
Describe your ideal significant other :: no. (stole again from amanda lol)

=JUICY STUFF=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? :: dont think i have..
Have you ever been intoxicated? :: heh yes sir
Height :: taller then amanda aaand sarah ^^
=LAST THING YOU=

Bought :: DDR and this sword
Ate :: eating rammen
Drank :: water
Read :: flcl
Watched on TV :: idk
Club or house party :: house
Drinks or shots :: both
Cats or dogs :: cats
Single or taken :: single but only to one person :P
Pen or pencil :: depends
Gloves or mittens :: none!
Food or candy :: food
Cassette or cd :: cd
Coke or Pepsi :: mountain dew?
This or that :: what ever

=WHO DO YOU WANT TO=
Kill :: i have a list
Look like :: heh i can only look like me tho ;P
Be like :: ben
Avoid :: bad things lol
=LAST PERSON YOU=
Talked to :: talkin to grant
Hugged :: umh sarah? wow i havent hugged anyone in a long time
Instant messaged :: grant still
=WHERE DO YOU=
Eat :: were the food be
Cry :: in my bed

HAVE YOU EVER=
Dated one of your best friends? :: yes.. well a good friend she was never a best friend lol
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? :: absolutely
Played Truth Or Dare? :: yes
Come close to dying? :: uh huh
=WHAT IS=
The most embarrassing CD in your collection? :: i dont evan know whats in my cd changer anymore
Your bedroom like? :: i try to make it as fancy as heck evan tho i put no money into it
Your favorite thing for breakfast? :: nothing.
Your favorite restaurant? :: cooking with harry, we cook some awsome food we do
What's on your bedside table? :: umm my wawtch ... a few pieces of paper with doodels and a book about dreams i think
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? :: chican patty
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? :: not sure i dont cry much during movies :P
What is your biggest fear?:: fear
Do you ever have to beg? :: sometimes lol
Are you a pyromaniac? :: heh sometimeees lol
Crushes? :: lol sarah
Do you know anyone famous? :: i know myself, and i will be famus i knows it
Describe your bed :: cummfy
Spontaneous or plain? :: depends on what im doing, and how much i want this said thing done :P
Do you know how to play poker? :: ehh in theory, i'm just not good haha
What do you carry with you at all times? :: idk i should were my glass's more tho
What do you miss most about being little? :: i miss not careing about things, and liveing from day to day
Are you happy with your given name? :: i like it, not happy with my last name tho, it was carmen first then davidson and im prolly going to chang it again lol
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? :: enough to keep me occupied 24/7
What color is your bedroom? :: white
What was the last song you were listening to? :: war on all sides : bush
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? :: not at all
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? :: Id hope so
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends? :: i dont have one ^_^ but if i did id try to spend time with her and my friends and jst have fun ^^
Holding hands?:: its nice.
Shy to make the first move? :: yea i never do ugh, im so shy but you would never guess if you knew me lol

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!!!!!!!!!!!!1



theres nothing to do!


i got spring fevah ::boogie::




ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!



....



bleh

Favorite:
1. gum: Big Red
2. restaurant: not sure... i like alot of food lol
3. drink: Water, coffie, milk, any mountan dew ^__^
4. season: spring
5. type of weather: springy?, i like when it rains also ^__^
6. emotion: heh uh i like the fun stuff
7. thing to do on a half day: im home schooled lol, but yesterday was a half day for josh and we went bowling lol
8. late-night activity: think
9. sport: sports ugh... uh i like to bowl play pool swim soccer hocky and idk i realy could care less about sports
10. city: nyc
11. store: bestbuy..? hottopic.. evan tho its run buy abricrombie >.<

When was the last time you...
12. cried: not sure but i didint like it ^^
13. played a sport: yesterday
14. laughed: in my dream count?
15. hugged someone: uhhh sarah was the last person i hugged.. well i did hug my mom when i got back but w/e
16. kissed someone: good question..?
17. felt depressed: yesterday
18. felt overworked: a few fridays ago
19. faked: faked? i got a evil split at bowling...
20. lied: dont know?

What was the last...
21. word you said: not sure... its still the morning.
22. thing you ate: rammen
23. song you listened to: grate below - NIN
24. last thing you drank: milk
25. place you went to: bed lol
26. movie you saw: prisoner of love.. idk it wa on tv
27. movie you rented: spun
Who was the last person you...
28. hugged: Sarah, my mom
29. cried over: heh... never mind lol
31. danced with: sarah if you count me not trying at ddr
32. shared a secret with: idk
33. had a sleepover with:does going to sarahs count?
34. called: josh
35. went to a movie with: dun know.. but it was proly with josh lol
36. saw: my dad
37. were angry with: i dont like to get angry
38. cant take your eyes off: haha
39. obsessed over: naruto and i have.. many intrests...
Have you ever...
40. danced in the rain: heeelll yea!
41. kissed someone: uh huh
42. done drugs: uh huhh
43. drank alcohol: uh huh
44. partied 'til the sun came up: oh yea
45. had a movie marathon: uh huh
46. gone too far on a dare: nope
47. spun until you were immensely dizzy: haha yea!
My life:
49. name: ben
50. gender: male
51. birthday: June 6
52. relationship status: single i guessh
53. nationality: irish... damn right!

Play:
55. i'm feeling: sleepy
56. i'm listening to: dad watching th tv
57. i'm doing: this thingy, putting off my homeschool test
58. i'm talking to: no one at the moment
59. i'm craving: heh you would like to know
60. i'm thinking of: still not answering
61. i'm hating: the things i cant do as much as i want to

Love:
62. love is:missing ::puts up flyers::
63. my first love: uh i dont know lol, iv had a girlfriend befor.. but not worth talking about
64. my current love: heh none?
65. love or lust: Love
66. best love song: no idea
67. is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time?: love is misunderstood i love my mom and my dad at the same time, unconditionaly n stuff its all about how you think of it
68. when love hurts: i go crazy whoo!
69. is there such thing as love at first sight?: possabely.. but i think thats more infatuation

Opposite sex:
70. turn ons: someone who can keep up with how i think, which means theey have to be smart and be abel to think outside the box, and nice eyes, perferably green ill let blue slid also lol
71. turn offs: small mindedness
72. do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: somewhat
73. what kinda hairstyle are you into?: long and down, sometimes you girls i tell yea always putin it up when you can be so cute with your hair down
74. What is the sweetest thing a girl/guy did for you?: ::shrugs::
75. where do you go to meet new people?: i dont know it just happens
76. are you the type of person to HOLLA and ask for numbers?: Nooope

Picky picky:
77. dog or cat: cats
78. short or long hair: on what?
79. sunshine or rain: rain!
80. hugs or kisses: Hugs with kiss's!
81. summer or winter: spring
82. written letters or e-mails: in person!
83, nintendo or playstation: all of em
84. car or motorcycle: Car
85. house party or club: House party
86. sing or dance: Both
87. freak or slow dance: Slow

Lately...
88. How are you today?: just woke up
89. what pants are you wearing right now?: sweat pants.. ehh all my other cloths are being washed at the moment
90. what shirt are you wearing right now?: black shirt
91. what does your hair look like at the moment: wet and not long nuf yet -.-
92. what song are you listening to right now?: didint this already get asked..
93. how is the weather right now?: nice n cool
94. who was last person you talked to on the phone?: josh? posabely the dude at work
95. last dream i can remember?: uh me n sarah sang the link song at work after i made a serise of unfortunat events into a stage play which was vary cool i might add!

hears a update!

well i got back from sarahs on idk.... but it was midnight by the time my air plain landed
cus of whole shit loads of delays and stuff. so i had to sit in chicago oharah airport for like 6 hours!

most of the time i was walking around listing to music for a while i was just running up and down the jetsons walky ma bob thingeys

then i had starbucks and paid for coffie with the moneys the jerry forced me to take, which im glade i did now :D

uhh then yea thats about it if you wana know about the con read sarahs jurnal! http://shira-chan.deviantart.com/journal/5016979/

uh yeup thats about it. im in sarah withdrawl lol and i didint get a chance to skate with chris, and i didint get to finish watching naruto, and i didint get to watch any of this anime that sarah got thats suposed to be super awsome random and funny lol gggrrr


i guess ill just have teh go see em in Alaabaaamaa lol.




heh and my super coolness rubbed off on amy and shes a ninja now lol

tomaarah i giggle my way over to sarahs house ^^


i just got done packing, now i just have to try to get to sleep tonight, i can never get to sleep the night befor something cool like this heh i get all giddy like a school girl and cant get to sleep lol.



well ill see yea later LOVE and PEACE

at work yesterday i figured everythigng out that needs to be known.


::this is about stress::

you get stress from negativ stimuli, for example i work at cicinos doing dishs, the dishs can be come stressfull when i fall behind but i found out that if you think about what is stressing you out and you realize its not that big of a deal.



so basicaly whenever you get stressed out think of why you are and whats causing it. and then think about how you can get around the stress factors with a clear mind so you can get over what ever is messing with yea.



whooo give me cookies i be geenius

i got these cool runes a while ago i like em and can actualy use em good :D

started working on joshs picta and thats comeing good

suround sound system kicks so much but with halo!

and uhh idk eat snacky smors